sad

tonight i went back to my old apartment for the first time in over a month. mark moved into his new place today, and he is turning over the keys on thursday, so i have to get the last, last, last of my things out this week.
that empty apartment was very sad. and then i found this in and amongst the things i was collecting; a housewarming card from when we moved in:

"Heather + Mark! Congrats on shacking up...now for the next step!"

i am okay, i'm not spending the evening weeping into a bottle of gin, or anything. i'm just a little sad, but i think that's okay, i think it might even be a good thing, sort of. it wasn't a little thing, and to not be sad about it would just diminish it. so i'll be sad for a bit.